Desolation

"If it was meant to be..
The hands wouldn't be empty"

what life brings..

"I may not have gone where I intended to go, but I think I have ended up where I needed to be"

- Douglas Adams, The Long Dark Tea-Time of the Soul

Freedom

Old stoned walls I see

when I break from sleep

Incomplete pictures I draw

on the dusty floor..

My leg gets hurt!

as the chain tightens..

Yes! I’m a prisoner

chained, for a reason unknown

Through the grilled windows,

I gaze at the birds

those fly merrily,

in the happy sky.

And, I wish I was one

among them, flying

to an unknown land, with

no regrets on the past,

no worries for the future,

living a life so small

To the fullest!

Each day, each second..

But yes! I’m the prisoner

who dreams each day

to smile so bright

with all my heart..

  

And yes! I’m the prisoner

who waits for death

with small dreams

chained along..

Life gets funnY

This guy is amaaaaaaaazzzzing!!!

 ps: i love his teeeeeeeth :D

was i that idiotic? really?? :D

10 long years back..

I was dressed myself in a gown.. which was gifted by my uncle on my birthday.

I danced dramatically, holding the hand and shoulder of an imaginary prince..on top of my bed!

Charmed by my prince's smile, i tripped off from bed, straight to the floor which was not even tiled!!

I still rub my forehead whenever that idiotic scene comes to my mind..
like what mr.Harry potter does!!! :O :D

Drops of hope..

In the moonlight

near the dark river..

dipping my legs

in the chill water!

feeling the rhythm,

of this moving current..

I sat over the moist rock

hugging, the misty wind..

Not a sound

could I hear..

except that

of some far away bird,

crying for its mate.!

The time went past me

The moon, still brighter

up in the sky! and,

the clouds floated away..

I still sat..staring

at its depths!

My eyes, they were in search

of a lost piece- my dream

Once made, but lost

still lingering in my heart

the tang, and its essence!

There I felt,

the warmth of tears

kissing my cheeks, as if

consoling my lost mind..

and my heavy heart!!

I wish...

Here is a a small wish of mine :)

I'd like to do a trip...a loooooong one.

Destination will be around some mountain.A calm place with a chilly climate,fade sunlight and indigo clouds.

I'll go in an ambassador car, wearing my favorite black tee and dark blue jeans.

The car will move slow..along the margin of the road with almost zero traffic! I'll put my hands out of the fully opened window, feeling the chill wind to the maximum!

I will pass by a woods then..which will be almost empty with old benches. Spending some time there,sinking in the silence, I'll resume my journey...no cell phone will I take..for it spoils the taste of my trip.

I'll pass by a clear lake, which carries the reflections of the clouds,high above! Rolling over the dark green meadows i will sit upon a rock dipping my legs in the cold water,feeling the tickles by those tiny fishes.

And then I'll reach my destination. A small tent will I make ready near a pond, to enjoy the days of fulfillment and refreshment.........!

(Actually, I was inspired by the movie 'Into the wild' and then this wish popped up ;) )

 

Oh my friend

           Chill wind blew in..

          through the half closed window.

          slowly, like an intruder!

          carrying the essence 

          of darkness! outside..

The tone, of lifeless waves

lapped in my ears.

It came in,slowly, slowly

without any haste.

I laid awake,cuddled

by its soft hands.

The wind made the balloons

dance in the air!

which laid on the floor

as the remnant,of a grand celebration!

I am happy..happier than ever!

sudden thoughts creeping over me,

of you,

who made me 'what I am'!

You helped me,in my troubles

as a dutiful friend

cared me,when I longed for it,

as a loving brother.

It was you,who gave me

a hand, at those sad nights,

But..I couldn't make you smile!

I learned from you,

the true meaning of life..

you taught me,the

first lessons of hard work.

And I listened, locked it safe,

to achieve a good tomorrow...

But, what happened between 

You and Me?

Love had nothing to do with it

neither hate!

I looked at the fading Polaroid 

photos, and

tried to believe they are happening...

But, you and me,not happening!

Iterating thoughts..tranquility!!

I still believe,

You'll one day, step into my life

like this cool breeze

and take me back

to those beautiful days !

Remembering you..

( The italicised stanza is purely et's contribution )

Frames

I'd like to share some amazing snaps here, framed by my friend with a little editing in some pics..

I was really really attracted to the photo album of this guy,so that with his permission I'm displaying some of his works , here at mushrooms..

                                                                                                                                                                  

 confronted by the mysteries..

into the dissolution..

impulse of creation..

with the rhythm of nature..

0 editing

secular atmosphere

at the terminating edge..

One of the point of amazement is this.., that these pictures were all taken from different places at my homeland -kannur, which has now become a main point of interest in the tourist map of kerala!!

:-)

let's welcome together

flower carpet laid at home

Celebration of flowers

celebrating united

Grand parents and grandchildren,

we do celebrate together..

New dress and new games

and, a delicious lunch

also, a lot more fun

Thus..we welcome a new year

of happiness, health and prosperity !

Proud to be a malayalee...!!

HAPPY ONAM  to all :-)

An0ther w0nderLand..

An inner view - a  part of our college.

And....Alice stepped into a new wonderland...where everything is new..

New place, new college,new atmosphere and new faces...! 

A new life... New! but strange. I'm a stranger and I see strangers. They looks at me,and i looks them back.

Nobody smiles..and nobody talks friendly..everybody stares and glances!

College is good. Good with good faculties,facilities,clubs,and people. still...i feel lonely, even amidst a crowd!

How life takes sudden turns, and how  everything changes..at once!

At some instances, I becomes an over pampered kid and cries..sitting lonely at a corner..where no one comes to wipe my tears.

Something burns inside me..and i start a new journey. People enters and leaves.. I moves from one place to the other..may this journey end well...

And I hear the whistle..the looong whistle!!!

* pic by a new friend of mine

With a smile..

When it rains..............!

the nature turns even beautiful...

                                                                            

so fresh...and calm...and serene.....

Those green fields..even greener, sky - so clear..and the fresh chill wind......

Kerala..the god's own country..!

snaps by my friend..taken, on the way to our school,..within d bus,..when it was drizzling.. :-)

'And a drop of sunlight'

                                                                    a snap from my last visit to the nearby beach

" The sea's only gifts are harsh blows, and occasionally the chance to feel strong. Now I don't know much about the sea, but I do know that that's the way it is here..

And I also know how important it is in life not necessarily to be strong but to feel strong. To measure yourself at least once. To find yourself at least once in the most ancient of human conditions. Facing the blind death stone alone, with nothing to help you but your hands and your own head . ."

- quote,from the movie, 'Into the wild'

Through the rabbit hole..

Before loong 12 YEARS...

It was a real crowded evening at the nearby bazaar. As we were on leave from the city the next day and before a tear-filled goodbye,uncle wanted to buy something for me.. He walked into a toyshop,wading through the crowd,taking me in his hands. I remember,.. it was a shop, where  blonde dolls with green eyes and cute puppies with white fur were arranged in different rows,enough to attract the customers. I was pointing almost randomly at dolls,puppies,teddies aaaaand naturally, uncle was 'confused' too!! suddenly, I was captivated by the bright red coloured cute piano with white-black keys..! Ignoring all other fascinating stuffs,I almost grabbed the red piano in hands.

It was actually a really small toy,which could only produce the 'do-re-mi' music.

But it was more than enough to disturb people,who were within a metric area when I played it :-D !! 

Just before 2 YEARS..

After the LONG 4-year-old cold war, dad bought me a brand new PIANO...finally!! 

Bliss-fully,I joined the nearby music class.

Happy-Happy alice played the piano and enjoyed her days :-)

But,before 2 weeks..

One day,

I was kinda bored.. TOO much...huhh!!!  becoz,

1. No one to fight with

   - sis went to school,know.. :-|

2. TV behaves like an idiot,at times..hm,true

3. Mom - busy at kitchen!

   -no no..! I don't disturb mom and receive the 'cutting vegetable' punishments!

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4. No interesting books to read!

Then! i found...my piano in a corner of my room.. Rubbed off the dust and made it ready to work! I then selected 'THE KNIGHT AND THE LADY' piece of note to play (being my personal favorite)

1,2,3..go!

hmmm....................life is too boring,sometimes.........TOO boring!!

Are 4 months such a loong time,enough to forget 'THE KNIGHT AND THE LADY' ???

i wonder!

The four wonderful things!

And,

we stepped into our wonderland..

To care,

to share..

to laugh and to fight.

Through the hills

and the meadows

in the pond,

and the puddle

in..and out

we jumped,

and we walked

hand in hand..

And,

The four wonderful things

we told..

You and Me

in

Our wonderland..!

The wind chimes

In this deserted church...

on this old,wooden bench

aside the large,black cross

I sat,lamenting..over a

lost dream!

Stillness and silence

makes me depressed..

All I could hear is

the distant sound ...

of the chimes!

'the wind chimes'..

Rain is in the air!

smell of fresh mud...

howl of chill wind

sound of soft drips,from the trees nearby

the rain has come....at last!